Hope

I can feel the hope at my fingertips! I still have moments of pure heartache where breathing feels unbearable but then I have my longer moments where I know God remembers me and knows what my heart desires. I wish I could feel that always. I went to the Lake with my sister and brother-in law yesterday and had a blast except once again something was missing. We had 3 wonderful children on board and there was an emptiness lingering in my heart. I wanted our child to be swimming in the lake, going of the rope swing, asking for a snack but as always I am just Aunt Ashley. I do love being an Aunt, I really do. Steven and I will be married 7 years in less than a month and I am praying for a miracle to happen this year.