Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Today is better, although today I started my period it seems to be eaiser then the negative test. I am so thankful for accurate pregnancy tests. I have taken over 70 pregnancy tests and have never had a false positive. Thank you Jesus for protecting me. So my eyes are back on the Lord and trusting in His perfect timing. Mark 11:24- "Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. What God does not promise is that He will give us what we pray for when WE want it. What I do know is that I will continue to pray and ask for my hearts desire. I believe in healing and I know God will give us our baby! Jesus thank you for being patient with me even when I feel bad for myself. Thank you for never changing, thank you for your Grace and Mercy.

Monday, December 27, 2010

Trying to process how I feel today...You would think after all this time I wouldn't be so upset to get a negative pregnancy test but I swear it only gets harder, the only difference is the time it takes to cast my eyes back on the Lord. i feel as though it is harder now that I believe without a doubt that God can heal me, because I feel that He is just choosing not to heal me as though there is something I am doing wrong.But as my sister reminded me, he may not be saying no but Not Yet.

Lord I am begging for a Miracle, you are the Healer, heal my body. My heart is crying out.

Praying my heart will not hurt as bad when I wake.