Friday, July 8, 2011
I am 5 weeks and 5 days pregnant and up until last night I felt great. Other then being tired and occasionally thinking I might throw up, I felt great. I have been having cramps since before the transfer and that has not changed. These were mild cramps nothing too exciting that was until last night. We went over to our friend's house for dinner and then when we were finished I started having mild cramping which then quickly escalated to bad cramping and then to where I couldn't get up off the floor. I went upstairs into the bathroom when I tried to go to the bathroom but the cramps were just so bad I couldn't even see straight. I was yelling and crying from the pain. I had this exact same thing happen about 3 months ago when I started one of my cycles. It isn't normal cramping. It is a constant cramp, contraction that never goes away. By the time it ended about 35 min later, I was covered in sweat, exhausted and emotionally drained. I couldn't believe after all that pain that I wasn't bleeding. I am telling you, I thought that was the end of the pregnancy for us. After lots of tears and more prayers I was able to head home. I did try and look some stuff up and also emailed my nurse. What I did find was that with endometriosis, pain can be horrible when the uterus is growing wince there is so much scar tissue from it. But it was just really scary. I got an email back from my nurse today and she basically said that cramping in early pregnancy was completely normal.....UM HELLO, this wasn't regular cramping, this was on a whole new level. So all I can do is believe that our baby is still hanging in there and wait till Monday when we get to go in for our first u/s. Some of you may think its weird that I'm worried when I'm not bleeding but that was my other question to the nurse. since I am on progesterone, if I was to miscarry would I even bleed since doing the progesterone shots keeps you from bleeding. She said that most likely if I was miscarrying that I would bleed from it. I hate that nothing is ever for sure. I hate that I had no thoughts of miscarriage at all and then this happened. I am praying that my mind would be at ease and that Monday would come here in a flash! Prayers are always needed! Thanks girls!!
Friday, July 1, 2011
Here it is! The post I have been waiting 5 years to write....I'm Pregnant!!! I still can't believe it! I have imagined this time for so long and really thought it would feel real but I am just in bisbelief. I was so sure that I wasn't pregnant. I was having pretty bad cramping and just wasn't feeling it at all but what do I know I guess:)
So Monday we made it to the clinic at 8am for the blood draw. I will say this, Monday morning was the only morning I woke up and felt like it could have worked which only frustrated me more because I knew my hopes were up really high! So blood draw was done by like 8:05 and then we had to kill time and a lot of it. We went to breakfast in Kent and then headed to Ikea. We bought a large bookshelf type thing for the office/sewing/bonus room plus a really cheap sewing table. Then we were off to Starbucks! After we ordered we sat down to play chess. Neither one of us know how to play but to pass time we tried to learn. By then it was 12 and I knew any time between 12-5 I could get the call. As soon as 12 hit, my stomach dropped and I was so nervous! I kept pretending to play. For those that know me, there is not a more fitting place then Starbucks for me to be told that I am PREGNANT!!! So at like 12:45 my phone rang and it was SRM. I knew as soon as I picked the phone up I would know whether I was or wasn't just by the sound of Terry's voice and sure enough I knew right away that I was pregnant! Still in disbelief, she said"you were wrong, you are pregnant"!!!! This was just the start of many "you were wrong" quotes of the day. But I don't care that I was wrong about this becasue I am pregnant!!!! I didn't start to cry or anything, I was shaking but that was about it. I got off the phone and Steven and I hugged for a long time(did I mention we went out to the car, so none of this was happening inside of Starbucks)and prayed and thanked the Lord for the blessing that we knew came from Him alone.
That next few hours was a whirl wind of calls made to friends and family and peeing on sticks! Thats right I really didn't test until after they told me I was pregnant and since then I have taken 5:) I would take more if someone would buy them for me!!!
There are no words to describe how thankful I am for all of you who were praying for us. We felt all of the prayers. We are so excited to be on this next journey! Our first ultrasound is on July 11th which is only the 6 week mark so we may only be able to see something not the actually heart beating but we will see! Thank you thank you thank you to all who prayed and supported us through the last long 5 years of our life!