Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Overwhelmed with Hope!
What can I say I have had a permanent smile on my face for days especially in the last 2. Call it reading into things if you like my I know my body probably better than anyone knows there body and my boobs should have started hurting two days ago and still nothing:) Not much more to say other than I am more Hopeful than I have ever been and I love it. I honestly feel like it could happen for us this month!!!! I am sad no matter what when it doesn't happen so I have decided to assume I am pregnant and it feels soooooooooooooo much better this way. Normally by now I am dreading the last 6 days but not this time, I am anxious! There have been months where I think I could be feeling symptoms differently but you can't imagine your boobs not hurting! I know anyone reading this is thinking I am only going to make it hurt more if I am not pregnant but I am okay with that. I haven't allowed myself to think that way this month. I allow myself about 5 min a day of worrying and then I tell myself nope your going to be positive...and it has worked! My cycle ends on Monday and I am going to try to not test until then but with the way I am feeling I doubt I will make it but maybe I can hold out. Steven just keeps repeating 4th and final! That is what we are believing. So that's the update. I am overflowing with hope!!