Another month of disappointment

Well this morning started off great...that is with my period. My heart is breaking and I feel defeated right now. I am so mad because I knew a week ago that I was going to start my period but I allowed myself to listen to other people, no one in particular, and believe there was some kind of hope and here I am terribly disappointed. There are no words right now to express how I feel. I am really scared that IUI's might not work for me and I will have to save up and put my body through the horrible process of IVF. There are no words right now.