Doesn't look good

Well just thought I would write a little. My heart is hurting right now, I am already cramping and I shouldn't be getting my period until Saturday or Sunday and it looks like it might be happening a little sooner than expected. I feel guilty for feeling so sad when I said that I trusted God and i would be fine either way. I still do trust God I just can't help but feel sad. Of course I just started crying in front of Steven. I hate that. I hate that I can't control my emotions. I feel like my body keeps failing me. I feel like I am broken. I feel broken